I’ve recently had a baby and I have postpartum anxiety. I used to carry everywhere and now I can’t. I was at the mall one day with my baby and a friend and her baby when the mall went into a lockdown. Normally I wouldn’t be scared because I usually have my Glock on me. But that day was different; my anxiety won’t let me carry. There was an armed robbery across from the mall and the guy fled towards the mall, so the mall went into lockdown. I couldn’t believe I put myself my baby, and friend and her baby in this situation and I had nothing to protect us. I felt like I failed us all. From then on I decided I never wanted to do that to my child, I am his mother and it is my responsibility to protect him. Not mall security, not the police, not another armed citizen, but myself. I need to be that armed citizen for my baby, family and friends. Though I still have trouble with postpartum anxiety, I am trying my best to get over that fear and carry as often as my mind will allow me.

            I have taken Krav Maga, which is an Israeli self-defense class, for those times where I simply can’t carry. There are always going to be times when we legally can’t be armed, like a government building, the airport, a school etc… So I feel it is important to know other ways to defend yourself and family. Whether you carry pepper spray, a tactical pen, or take self-defense, I feel it is important to have those skills.

I carry for my family, friends, and myself.  I believe a woman should learn to protect herself and not have to rely on others to do so for her. If my husband isn’t around, it is my responsibility to protect myself and those around me. Though I live in a small town in Idaho with a low crime rate doesn’t mean we are completely safe, bad things can still happen in small towns. Now that I am a mother I feel a greater responsibility to protect my baby’s life I never want to be in a situation where I would think “if only I had my gun on me” because then it could be too late.

-Alyssa, Idaho

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